What is the perfect girl exactly? Vanessa Hudgens, Kim Kardashian, Selena Gomez? Having perfect hair; the right color, right length, and right volume. Having the perfect body; Curves, skinny, huge butt and boobs. You have to have the perfect smile, the softest face with no acne or wrinkles, beautiful eyes. But then guys look for other details too, like she has to be athletic, or know how to play video games, or be able to eat a double quarter pounder. Boys need to know that there is no such thing as build-a-girl. I’m sorry but let’s be real here, nobody is perfect.
My whole life I’ve dealt with trying to be good enough for every one but never realized that in the end I should only be good enough for myself. I’m the one that’s supposed to be happy with myself. I’m never going to be perfect obviously but when boys are constantly comparing me to other girls that are “better” or “cuter” than me, then that’s when I wish I could be perfect. It puts me down and makes me feel like I’m not good enough. Instead of realizing the good things about me they point out my flaws and imperfections and use that to tell me who I am. They don’t understand that my scars are from battling my severe depression, the fact that I’m lazy is because of depression, everything is because of my depression.
That’s one of my biggest goals for the rest of this school year and summer. I’m going to work hard to get the body that I want. the look that I want, because I want to prove everyone wrong. I want those guys that compared me to other girls to fall for me, because now I can reject them for the way they treated me. I know revenge is never the answer but I don’ t think of this as revenge. I think of it more like proving everyone wrong and just letting me be happy. I’m still the same me on the inside, but on the outside the me I’m going to be happy will be shown. I have so much anger and motivation built inside me that I am ready to challenge myself and do this for MYSELF. I’m not doing it for anyone but me.